Why? I don't know.....

OK - I called the hospital yesterday, where my son was for 1 month after his birth. I want the CD's of his MRI's. I have his whole medical record which has the reports in...but I want the pictures. Why??? I have no idea. I know I am torturing myself further, but cannot help it.

Otherwise things are ok.....we've had a bit of snow and ice but not too much. Cannot believe it will be February soon. I am ready for spring though....I am not a winter person in the least.

Still hurting..... always will be..... and, I think that's ok. it should hurt, right?

OMG! It's 2009

Ok, I'm sure nobody reads this....I didn't realize I had not posted at all in 2008. Thought for sure I had.
Anyway, things are well. Both kids are healthy and happy.....except for when they're fighting. I had not anticipated this sibling rivalry so early. A 4 1/2 yr old and a 1 1/2 yr old. It's not pretty sometimes. Oh well.
The 19th is the "anniversary" of my son's death. Anniversary is not the right word....but anyway. It's hard to believe it'll have been 5 years. I long to hold him so much. I hold his clothes and try to remember.
I've had a bit of a relapse lately....depression, etc. I think that will always be with me though, and I have to accept that. And try to not let it consume me and become me.
I've started going to church. I find great comfort in that, and peace.
Well, my little one is up. I'll try to post more this year.